Originally Posted by
RacingJim
Ages ago, can't really remember much of that film, always felt like a cheapo Trainspotting
Def watch it. It is different than Trainspotting. It reminded me more Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas where LSD is replaced by MDMA and the description of failed revolution is replaced by description of failed love.
As for the motivation bullshit. Malikbhai said all the wise words. If there is no motivation, there maybe is no reason. You are a successful affiliate. That means you made a lot of money. It is vital, that once you were poor you were motivated to work. It is natural and healthy, that now, as you have the f****** money, you do not feel the motivation to work for the purpose of gaining more money that you do not need (if you feel it this way; I believe the opposite, I believe the money need us and that is why I reluctantly went into making it, see below).
At this point I find destructive for you to push yourself harder to the work. If you have to work (and I believe everyone has to work regardless of money or age) you have to reshape other things in life. In fact, you should have done it before. There are theories like Maslow pyramid, which tell us that 1st we have to solve money (and things like that) and after we have to solve things like relationships or purpose of life etc. I think it is bullshit. I believe in "renaissance man and approach". All the things have to be done at once somehow (no, I do not mean some balanced hipster bullshit, which is written by obvious procrastinating losers; simply it does make sense to work 16 hours a day, eat pizza and do not exercise sometimes).
What happened I guess is that you focused too much on work, now you are getting feedback with your mind and health. Doing legal and illegal drugs when things are ****** up never helps.
At this point you (I am not talking to affiliate newbies here) should be working on answers for questions like: What you will do with the money? What will you do with the more money you will get? What will you do with the life (and other existential bullshit)? I mean you really should be working on it and not just saying some things. It might take more time to answer than it took to make the money. That might be just one of the hard parts of it. This work will not be probably done by sitting by the computer, but it will be still very hard (just not sitting by some internet connected device is very hard for us all).
I feel this is the real bottleneck for many so called "successful people". The focus on motivation at work makes no sense completely for those who do not have it already. Especially in our job it is really not significant who will grab the money from the lost souls of gamblers, so we do not have the excuse of doctors or social workers that we must save the people etc, since we are clearly destroying them. In the end we will all die and our excessive savings will be redistributed. So if we do not use the fruits of our work somehow we are really lost. Our society does not give answers for the purpose of life. The max you can get is recommendation to give money to some random charities or to help to some people who are in sh1t. But those things (like helping idiots who just digest their destroeyd karma and do not like the taste of it) do not help. Pretending that it helps makes the life just a bigger hell.
My point is that now you have to take all your courage and play it hard. You can not hide under middle class lifestyle. You have to start doing something with the world, but nobody will tell you what it is and maybe it will be completely silly.
Almost everyone I know who made decent money is struggling with similar symptoms. I really thank god it is not my problem, because I have close people and employees and cats to whom I can dedicate my life. Even more importantly I did not lose the passion for life and discovering new things. I am forcing myself to go deep into new countries and experiences which are almost always weird, painful, tiring as hell and unpleasant, because I am scared to lose the steam. I am very much scared to be trapped. So my motivation not to stop on living is very strong and motivation to work is just a byproduct and if it will be gone it will be gone. As for example vanished my motivation to have sex with every nice woman I see, which is something I had 20 years ago.
I believe this is for everyone, that is after all why I am constantly writing those things. There is high risk that this will be taken as the litanies of Mormons standing by the Tesco, but what can I do? It really works as SEO works for example. I am sure deep inside everyone knows it. Everything is about courage or in other words faith to go into uncharted territories of all kinds. You did it online, so there is no reason to not repeat it. gl
If you talk to God, you are praying; If God talks to you, you have schizophrenia.